good morning, have you noticed i haven't followed new year's resolution of updating my website monthly? it's chill because i couldn't keep my resolutions of learning more hawaiian and staying in college either. *explosion sound effect!* sal dropped out of college!? yes girl!! almost immediately after i posted my last journal entry in january!! but don't worry girl, i'll fill you in on what's happened since.
for some background, when i began college in the fall, i thought it ws a great idea to stop taking my meds entirely. i thought "my mom's not here to make sure i take them," i felt fine! until i didn't feel fine! i got severely unmotivated and depressed during winter break, and it carried into spring semester. that brings us to january!!!
the first week of spring semester started in january. i was so off my rocker that i attended one syllabus day, decided i couldn't do it, and promptly dropped all my classes and withdrew from the college. at first, dropping out felt so freeing, like a being set free. as soon as i got home, though, i immediately became more unmotivated and depressed than before. i felt like such a for dropping out. everyone was busy with work and school while i stayed home and sat in bed for hours waiting for something to happen. i felt like a disappointment.
february i was so sad and miserable that i don't really remember much of it.
things started to look better in march! two of my friends from college came to stay at my house over their spring break, and we did everything ever!! we built a , went to a , played games, bought so much bullshit, went out to , together... i can't even begin to describe how much i love my friends. i had so much fun and i was so happy to see them!
april started pretty chill. my boyfriend's phone from 8th grade finally kicked the bucket. it's been about a month of him with no phone. it's so hard to get in contact with him, especially last minute when plans change. high school theatre season started near the end of april. i saw my ex on stage for . i had a time and i felt a lot of emotions!!!! i met up with my younger sibling in the lobby after one of the shows. they said "everyone did great!" and then one of their friends looked panicked and quickly said "well! not EVERYONE!" and i know they were talking about my ex. i literally like "okay this is insane why are YOU hating on them harder than me right now!!!!"
may started with my boyfriend's musical (yknow, high school theatre season), and he KILLED IT !!!! he also sprained his ankle because he did a front flip and landed on his ankle wrong. it was . he was trunchbull. try to imagine where the front flip would go. he was in crutches for a week or so before he was walking normally again. it was a little scary. prom happened in may as well! my last prom 4eva! i'm so glad i spent it with my benny boy. there were some end-of-the-year things here and there, but i know things will really get busy in june and july. #gradpartyseason !!! i can't wait to give so many people so much
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